There are so many things that I would like to say to you,
things I just haven’t had the time to say in the right way.
I need you to know you saved me, that this here you and me was not just something out of the mist. I need you to know that I have smiled more with you than I have in the last several years of my life and that I’m no longer scared of whats to come since you’ve showed me the way. I need you to know that your an amazing human being, that you’re the kind of person this world needs more of. I want you to know that I appreciate everything you have done for me more than you will ever suspect.
Thank you for saving my life when I started to believe that their was nothing left to save.
I was really worried about starting university in the fall but now i’m not so sure. I mean yeah i’m still scared that i’ll go there and meet no one and my frosh week will be spent by myself in my dorm, tucking myself into bed by 9. But now i’m just kinda bored with everything in my life and I kinda want to get away. The university is way up north and I don’t think anyone I know is actually going there, because everyone wants to go to Ryerson or weston or york because their big. That makes me happy cause I kinda don’t really like the people I know. I’m a terrible person. And who knows maybe university will be this whole new discovery and i’ll meet people with good taste in music who read Sylvia Plath and Bukowski and watch random films with great cinematography. And maybe i’ll actually just be happy.
I think it’s strange that we spend our whole life trying to be something were not, for people we don’t like, but that the moment someone we love see’s the real us we just disappear.